One night..!

It was just around 10:30 junta in the wing seriously ghoting all the ways of modulating themselves for communication systems while I was busy reading blogs! The door banged hard.. the only name that came into my mind who cud do that.. got up from the wrapped blanket and opened the door.. he was there!
“ANC??” kartik asked.
“buddy wats the fun in goin at 10.. anc means only all nite perhaps shud start late nite!” I replied hastily!
“uff.. chal re baap”
“lets go at 12:00”
“okie..catch u at 12 sharp” saying that he jus left to his room!
There was some problem in my stomach that time..dont remember why but still didn’t feel like going! Started looking at the slides.. slept for a while.. the impulses and the waves did send the message signal.. cudn’t find the carrier anywhere! The two ghotu dogs where still trying to get their heads into the book beside my room! It was as if I fell into a trance… of some crap world.. heads of dogs and cats hanging.. a buzz on the gtalk made me recall my senses back! Didn’t care to answer it though. Went thru the slides again and found that a lot of portion was still left. I needed a break.
It was 12:00.. was about to message kartik, the window suddenly popped up– ‘ready??’. kartik it was! In few minutes got up and started moving out of the bhavan. It was cold..infact a bit more colder than the past 2 days! A few degrees over.. cud see the fog forming under the streetlights. There was eternal silence until we reached the patel statue… the sounds of a b’day around cumin from adjacent bhavan bumped into my ears! They didn’t occupy my attention though.. we were still silent.. there was nothing that one cud start talking on.. Kartik was the first to break the silence.
“ANC rates increased from today”
“oh..” , as if I was indifferent.. I was… my mind was totally occupied with nothing!
He was telling me something.. which my ears cudnt retrieve.. I jus was saying nothing but a ‘hmmm..’ for everything he said!
Reached ANC.
“maggi??” he asked
“yup”
Met some other guys there… jus an eyebrow raised and a smile flashed back.. a ‘hi’ wudnt have mattered me then…but dunno y!
I grabbed a cream roll and was crunching it looking around… kartik had already taken his seat! The cold had risen a bit till then… there was silence again.. none of us spoke… I could see the dim lights from the Nescafe stall shining on… the sight lured me into the world of thoughts.. thoughts that still mesmerize my heart, those days when we ‘elite’ six used to spend our lives in ANC.. those captivating moments.. this was the place where we got introduced to each other… it all went till the farewell day where there was desperate sobering… still the feelings are alive in me… all the time we had no clue that we had spent the most memorable time of our lives.. the moments perished…but still my heart wants them again.. never seem to have observed the man and the woman on the ad banner below the café counter so closely… as I was staring at them…they started looking real, The thoughts got high… a sudden jerk stopped me from flowing away with them.
‘hello! Wat r u dreaming?’ kartik said.
‘nothin ra.. gen’
Then he started talking about all soughta crap…ANC workers, PS On/Off.. I was all the while humming…. ‘hmm’ was the only thing I cud say for anything that he said!
Seemed kartik was looking out for something! The words jus came out from his mouth,
‘U had to tell me something.. about urself.. u neva let it out… ab bolo...wen asked at times u used to cut it off...anywayz time is there now…shoot’.
My senses called me back!
A hum was not he was looking for! This made me sense for the first time that I shud talk something.. something sensible… something that I had to...perhaps I shud tell him...something that was a critical thing in life which I say I have shared wit very few people.. kartik was the one on the list long back… yet there was something stopping me then…but now I had to tell him! I had to! It was nothing less than a hour that we talked ... talked after long silence...the cold was paining but still it had feeble effect on us...perhaps the warmth that we shared in our words had shed it… the talking went on, on different things… things about our lives, people, relations, frends, everyone! The fried maggi was no longer of any interest! The talks went on for so long until the clock hit 3:00… we found ourselves in my room…still talking! The modulators had started ringing; they had to look for the suppressed carrier signal.… I had to finish the tut portion! Kartik left with a short smile on his face wishing me gudnite. I could see his face, the content and gratitude that it expressed. The nite really had feelings unleashed from my heart. A nite to remember!

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Hmmm…talking with hearts open is always a different feeling.. even while penning this down I still remember I told kartik that I wud blog about this nite… he refused… but still the talking between us affected me.. I have to admit this! Yet the talk that we had still remains in the dark, it sent out a silent message to me that my life was no good… days passed in life, met different people, still have the ones who love me and whom I love, but yet I cannot step down my adamant mind on one thing.. Never have confidence in the ones whom u believe in… the only person u can rely, have faith and hope is U!

For people who don’t know… crappy ‘elite’ six; me,harshie,chiku,rashmi,sathu n gaurav!